When 2 becomes 1

On the same day that my BIL's wife were admitted to the hospital, my

sister was actually at the same venue.

You see, my sister were married last July, and alhamdulillah, a month
later she was confirmed to me that she was expecting. I was of course
overjoyed as I get to share the same excitement and stories of
pregnancy! :) an april baby! Which means my parents are getting 2
grandchildren at once! :)

Everything went smoothly up until last week. She told me that she's
having some spotting. I was feeling uneasy of course so I immediately
told her to go to the nearest doctor. There, the doctor told her that
he couldn't locate the baby in the womb.

Panicking, I told her to straightaway go to HUS for a 2nd opinion.
After being told to go to different levels of the building, she
finally met with the Dr there. And he conforms it. She's just had a
missed miscarriage. (╥_______╥)

A missed miscarriage occurs when the fetus dies, however the woman's
body continues as if the fetus is still viable.  The diagnosis of a
missed miscarriage is usually considered after fetal heart tones are
not heard or the size of the uterus has not grown.  Then a ultrasound
will be performed which will show a fetus that stopped growing several
weeks prior to the ultrasound and there will be no fetal heart tones.

I was heartbroken! I bawled for quite a while until Hubster reminded
me that I shouldn't be so emotional and sad as my baby might be
stressed :(

It was such a sad moment that although I have stopped sobbing, my
tears kept coming down as I ввм-ed her encouraging words and doa.. My
sister is sure the strongest person.

And the next day, my SIL delivered a healthy, happy 2.895kg baby Damia
:).. Talk about Kebesaran Kuasa Allah...

Sis dearest.. We will always ♥ you no matter what. You are strong and
brave, and InshaAllah everything will be better for u n ur hubby in
the future.. Amin

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help!

am struggling to finish this ssqs thingy but i just cant get my heart to do it sincerely. yes, i admit to taking this task and complaining about it all the time.. haih.. susah jadi orang yang tak pandai kata "NO" nih... i just agreed on doing it and then end up breaking my bones and getting stressed out..

BUT... inhale... exhale.. i can't deal with any stress right now.. not good for the little one and me...

anyways, i miss home so much. i used to jump on the plane whenever i feel like going home *which explains the neverending debt on my cc*.. but with this belly and the hormone changes, i have to really set a date and prepare mentally and physically only to spend the weekends with the ones that i lov.. my family :(

i feel like shopping but honestly i dunno where to start with the baby thingy and the list is VERY VERY LONG.... haih..

i should stop.. and call Hubster.. I just wish i can hold him instead to ease this stress :(

on Unwinding and Bumpy Roads

• malas nak tulis panjang2. Just somethings that i wanna spill..

• i can't believe how rude some online sellers can be. no greets and all, just direct scolding asking for proof of payment and all.. worst, they didn't even refer back to buyers after the payment. Leaving me wondering about the status. Huh...

  harap muka je lawa, manners ZERO.. pfffttt



• how can a man be so insensitive when talking about his wife's miscarriage. Ko ingat dia suka2 nak gugur ke? ke ko gelak2 sbb takyah nak kluar duit nak tanggung belanja dia sepanjang pregnancy? ALHAMDULILLAH my spouse is not like YOU! syukur sangat sangat!


• i'm really exhausted.. i need a break! :(

*barf*

not really in a good mood today. Everything seem okay in the morning. Come 10.30, my head would spin and my sense of smell would heightened! ohh.. and not counting the churning stomach and everything.. :(

Help!

My oh My...

Had our Preschool Briefing today. Met with a lot of old friends and had quite a blast. Suddenly, Vin just blindly asks me, what did i do to my skin when i got married last year. she said that i was glowing and all.. that really made me thought of something..

i did kinda let myself go now, which makes me a bit bitter sometimes. I love taking supplements and doing vigorous exercise and living on a diet. But this TTC thingy has made me try to live normally and comfortably.. haih..

No, i am not blaming Hubster and Babysis for reminding me that over-dieting can really mess with the body. I am blaming myself for not taking this opportunity to eat better :(

Ooh.. I am so upset right now, really.. I wanna start over.. I wanna eat as if I am getting married again. I wanna be healthy again! I hate being in this situation! Arghhhhhhh

Heartbreak :(

got the most heartbreaking news ever today... i need my husband :'(

TGIF?

Some would really lov the fact that Friday's coming because weekend's around the corner. Not me, though.. Well, at least when i am not going back home :(

Sure, weekends means getting a few more hours of beauty sleep.. But then it also means that I am gonna get bored to death! Time seems to pass by so slow when you are waiting for a trip home, but flies as fast as Superman when you're having fun! Ughhh...

I can't wait for next week. That's when I'll be home.. Miss my Hubster so much :(

p/s: lov the date! :)

22 days

Still 22 more days till the school hols :( and owh... I might not be home to celebrate IdulAdha :((





I miss my cats :( and Hubster....

Where are You?

i never realized how much i missed blogging. And while i was in the process of vamping up my blog and template, only today i realized i had lost all the links from the old blog!

aprincessdieries[dot]blogspot

guys, please leave me your links or a slap for forgetting to back them up :(

Scooby - Doo.. Where are you?

photo: classic-tv.com

Day 2 | Die! Die!

You must have wondered why i haven't updated my blog for about two days now!
I am actually a broken hearted lady now... My netbook has gone haywire! T_T
The infamous battle of Apple and PC now has ended! And my netbook has died as a casualty of war!!! Huhu...
I was updating my iPhone before going to bed on Sunday. When its all done, i shut the netbook down, pull the plug out and went straight to bed..
The next day, in an attempt to update my blog and pay my monthly expenses, i realize that it was taking a lot longer than usual to start up! Panicked, call up Hubster and BabySis, only to be told that she's corrupted! Huhu...
I maybe good at computers and stuff, butI am practically a retard when it comes to softwares and hardwares and formating... Huwaaaa.. Right now i am actually updating via my phone! Alhamdulillah it hasn't turn its back on me... Huhu
Thank God that its only 2 days away till the school holiday! Atleast i have Hubster's laptop at home! That's all i guess... Till then.....

P/s: Thank God I have a computer genius as my Hubster! Yay! Safe bajet bali aku... Hehehehe

Sakit Hati

had the chance to watch the Thomas Cup semi last night. Only watched the 2nd game, though. The Doubles. It only took me about 10 minutes to hold my tongue before i start lashing on the players! One of the reasons was because all the stupid, small and silly mistakes that both did! Urgh!

I couldn't bring myself to watch the 2nd set, too painful to bear :(

I am not an expert on badminton, so i should stop now :(

Anyway, congrats for making it to the semi's. Better luck next time, i guess... Its just not our year...

i miss waking up next to you every morning.

i miss preparing your breakfast and clothes before work.

i miss hugging and kissing you goodbye before work.

i miss waiting for you to come home from work.

i miss having dinner together, even when i burnt the meal.. *heh heh*

i miss dozing off in on your lap, when you're watching The Discovery Channel :p

Lastly, i miss kissing you good night, right before we go to bed..

I miss you! Owh... 14 more days till i can see you! :(

1 more week to go!

TGIF! The weekend is coming but i still can't enjoy mine, YET.. we still have a replacement class tomorrow and it ends as usual at 11.30.. unlike the last 2 week :(

to tell you the truth, you can only see my flesh and body here in QP, my mind is wandering away to KaChing eversince i got the news that my application has been rejected. Well its not really official yet, but when "TIDAK DISOKONG" is largely stamped across my form, YOU BEtcha i'll still be here when school reopens in June =_="

Urgh! Sometimes i feel like getting preggy as fast as i could so that i can transfer as fast as possible! BUT, at the same time, i know God hasn't granted our wish yet because He knows how much a crybaby i am without Hubster by my side. Biasa2 pun, macam nak mati dah rindu... Kalau preggy? =_="

Owh.. enough moaning for today. Lets be grateful for once. Alhamdulillah, i am still alive and well today, and am able to go to work, which results in money for me to go shopping... hehe.. Thank you Allah :)

M.E.R.A.J.U.K

officially MERAJUK...

:(

P/s: Babe, i really need you now, sayang T_T

NOTHING TO DO

the weekends is here... while most of us love weekends, they usually make me cringe.. well, atleast when i am here at qp.

while everyone else look forward for a relaxing quality time with their family, i usually spend my weekend in qp in front of the telly :( and harrassing Hubster with messages every 5 minutes or so...

Haih...i wish i was home... can't wait for the next weekend. I plan to go home to KaChing... I really need a break.. :(

I am sorry... Emak masak kari....

Sorry for the ramblings this past couple of days... I think its my hormones.. I am really messed up right now.... huhuhuhu

i miss my 44kgs FRAME! Belum pregnant lagi tapi dah beso gedabak! huhuhu

R.I.N.D.U

T_T

Updating.... not!

i am so not feeling like my self right now.. i blame my Aunt Flo... urghhh... can i feel anymore fat then i already am? urgggghhh....

i HATE feeling like this...


urghhhh... I WANNA BE SKINNY! huhu




p/s: missing Hubster and not seeing him for a MONTH doesn't help either? haih



|1|2|

seriously? seriously..

roomie's friends came over for the weekend yesterday.. their first question was,

Are you expecting?

seriously?! did i look that bad?! urrggghhh~~ seriously? seriously... (T_____T")

One down...

a million more things to do~~!!! this email really made my day~~! Yay..

I am very glad to confirm your booking on June X - X this year and it would better if you could give us your flight details later on to make easy pick up in the airport.

and owh.. Payday~~~ :)